To A True Friend.

In January, I sat down at my computer with a determination to change my life. I wanted to activate all of the faith that I had garnished in 2008 and I did not want to be consumed by stagnancy any longer. I came across a profile on iseecolor. The profile picture was a black and white, said she did voice over work, looked professional enough. The lady in the picture looked like she was savvy. "We'll add her, see what she has to say." Who knew that she would be instrumental in changing my person so profoundly by forcing me to confront myself and stretch the envelope, daily.

Her welcome came in the form of an Eyejot video and I thought, "that's different. Did she say that she hoped to get the opportunity to KNOW me? Felt real enough. We'll see." Then came an invite to an accountability group for "scatterbrains". Sounded like me, so I joined. Maybe that was what I'd been missing, a group of people to kick my ass into shape. On the first conference call, I was extremely nervous. It was like going to your first AA meeting. I was even more nervous as the intros were being said and I thought, "I have no place here! These people are doing real, serious shit and I am trying to be a voice over artist. These people have tangible proof of their work. I have two songs on a Myspace page. Damn." Then came a one on one call with the architect of the accountability group. Gulp. She was cool, down to earth yet energetic. Her advice was simple. Live life as though I already am that which I wish to be. The thing that was even more encouraging was the fact that she was willing to teach me what she knew. She held out her hand and offered to pull me up to her level, without ever having met me face to face. She didn't act as though she was better than me because she held information I needed. Not once did she make me feel inferior for seeking her knowledge and expertise. Immediately, she made it known that she sought to be instrumental in the achievement of my dreams and desires. I exhaled, "Thank you Lord, I'm on the right track. God you led me to someone I can trust. Someone who knows and is willing to share."

I didn't have to beg. I didn't have to offer her my first born child. She never asked me for a dime. She never tried to make me feel bad because I didn't have a dime. She sat next to me and opened her mind and told me that I was privy to everything that was within. That meant more than she will know. I admire her spirit. She is my mentor, though she may not even have the knowledge that she is so. She is my friend, though she has never shaken my hand. She is my sister, though we don't share mother or father. She is now part of me. I shall carry her with me always. Thank you, Mari!