Self Saboteur.

I'm just a singular person in this world. I don't know everything, though, I strive to learn as much as possible. I make tons of mistakes; most of them before I get my morning cup of coffee. I don't bad things to good people and had bad things done to me. I've been selfish when I should have been generous. I been giving when I should have kept some things for myself. I guess that is the way of life. What always give me pause is how it is in some people's nature to ruin any and everything good in their lives.

We've all seen this people. They get an advantage and then seem hell-bent on losing it. Example, they meet a person who is positioned to help them get the job they really desire and they never make the necessary phone call. It is a sad occurrence that happens all too often.

I have found, for my part, that most of the issue is in my self image. I often have felt that I was undeserving of certain successes. Actually, I have hardly ever felt prepared or worthy of many of the opportunities I have had. Until recently, I would have categorized myself as flighty and lazy. As I have begun to reevaluate my thoughts and actions, I can say that I am neither of those. However, being given those labels since childhood, it was easier to believe those things about myself than do a real assessment. In fact, I am dedicated and diligent when it comes to those things that I am passionate about. Nonetheless, the negative connotations have been the ones that I have persistently clung to. Therefore, whenever success has been on the horizon I have looked at it as something that is not meant for me; the flighty, lazy one.

I daresay that I am not the only person for whom this is the case. I would venture that most of us have similar hang-ups and embedded programming that hold us back. I think, though, it is time for us all to get a grip. It is high time for everyone to define themselves for themselves. There is far more to be gained than there is to lose. Are you with me?